Desperate for Strength!

This past weekend was rough. Honestly, at times I felt as though I just couldn't do it. My precious little boy became sick and the truth of the matter is that it wore me out!

Friday we came home after Luke's sister called and said that Liam had a 102 temperature. When we got home, the little guy just looked miserable. We immediately took him to the doctor where he quickly told us, your weekend will not be fun. Not the words I really wanted to hear! And yes, my weekend was not fun!

I remember Friday night being up with Liam at 1:00 in the morning just telling God, "Lord, I can't do this. I don't think I'm cut out for motherhood." I had lost all my strength. I truly felt as though I just could not go on. Not only was I exhausted, but I wanted nothing more than to be able to help my little guy feel better. I remember asking God, "why won't he just sleep! I DESPERATELY need sleep! If I don't sleep, I can't function! God, I can't do this!"

I think it was at that moment when I said, "I can't do this" that He said, "you are absolutely right. You can't do this-you need Me." It was then that I finally realized, how desperately I need Him. How desperately I need His strength. How desperately I need Him to carry me when I feel as though I can't go on. How desperately I just need Him.

As I've thought about this past weekend, I can't help but continually think upon 2 Corinthians 12:9:

"Each time he said, 'My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.' So now I am glad to boast about my weakness, so that the power of Christ can work through me."

You know what? I'm not a perfect a mother and never will be. There are days where I just want to pull my hair out and at times wonder, Lord, are you sure I can do this. It is then that He whispers in my ear, "you can't but I can and I'm here to help you and see you through it."

Where in your life today are you lacking strength? Where in life do you feel as though you can't go on? Trust Him-He will see you through it!

Mini-Makeover Madness

This past Saturday, I woke up just feeling blah and was really sensing that I needed to give myself a "Mini-Makeover". You know, my hair was beginning to look as if it hadn't been touched or brushed in weeks, my wardrobe was lacking (closet full of clothes yet I couldn't "find" anything to wear), nothing seemed to fit anymore, and my nails looked as if they had been through the ringer and back!

Needless to say, I woke up and decided it was time to get myself in order again! I spent the morning focused on this one thing and would not allow anything to get in my way of accomplishing the goal of "getting myself fixed".

Well later that evening, I felt as if the Lord was speaking to me. Now believe me, I do think it's perfectly ok and at times really needed, to get a mini-makeover. I tend to take part in one every few months. But I did feel as if the Lord was asking me whether or not I had ever been so diligent in wanting and desiring a heart makeover. Let me explain.

When I was busy running around on Saturday accomplishing those things that I felt I needed in order to make myself look better on the outside, I would not allow anything to stop me from reaching my goal. I was determined. But yet, Saturday evening I had to truly ask myself, when was the last time I was this diligent in allowing myself to look deep into my heart and in turn, wanted nothing more than to get myself in order again? When was the last time I was "disgusted" by what I saw on the inside, that I would in no way allow anything to get in my way from reading and meditating on God's Word so that my heart could have a mini-makeover? When did I last long for a clean heart? Honestly, it had been some time.

So, Saturday night I spent some time just reading and thinking about this person, Jen Bennett that He created and in turn, spent some time thinking about those "ugly parts" that I really want to change. And you know what? It was refreshing! It was time well spent.

So, you know I have to ask, When was the last time you longed for a heart makeover? Is it time for one in your life?